I am the dark core within the brightness, the single seed of winter hidden
in summer's warmth, that one tiny shard, icy and sharp, kept close against the
heart.
I think I have always been this way, though my mother does not see iteven
as a girl I hid it from her, and played in the sunshine with the other maidens.
On one such morning of new grass and clear skieson a perfect day, when
the sky was a vivid cyan, the sunlight bright as a blade, the laughter of my
playmates too shrillon this too perfect day, I closed my heart to the
brilliance, and I dawdled away from them to the shade of a tall cypress, its
shadow falling long and cold against the moist earth.
And as I stepped within the shadow there it was: a hideous flower, gruesome
and gleaming, a monstrosity of the kind nature makes in her careless way, for
she is like a child who sets a toy ship in a stream, then wanders off and does
not see it wrecked on the stones of the bank. Fascinating, this thing, like
a snake born with two headsa narcissus that from its thickened stem bore
a hundred crowded blooms, its petals a livid white, veined and translucent,
bearing in the center of each a blood red cup. The fragrance from it was powerful
and far too sweet, and as I stared I recognized that about it hung just the
barest after-image of illusion, as of a poison disguised. I could also see that
it was not meant that I should resist it, and so I did not‹I grasped its fat
stem and tugged, and as I did the earth opened beneath me.
From the dark ground burst the dark King, who snatched me up and stole me
away to his grave Realm, deep within the earth. Was I surprised? Only a little.
Did I scream, cry, rage over the injustice of it? Hardly. I know Fate when I
see Her.
I also knew that my mother would weep for me. Let her.
And in the deep cold of my bones, I knew it was inevitable that she find
me.
I knew this, and I knew she would never hear me, were I to tell her my desires.
It has always been this way. We are simply too unalike, my mother, her hair
shining like summer, her mind all flowers and seeds and warmth, and I, who find
my peace among the black poplars that are mirrored in the silent pool.
And there I was in the land of the dead, alive, and free to wander through
the vast and silent halls heaped with wealth, among the flickering shades and
deep shadows, the oblivious night wrapped close about me like a heavy robe,
all the while waiting to be stolen back to the blinding sunlight whether I will
or no. For I was no prisoner there, though it has been said of me.
The dark King accorded me every kindness, in his cold way, despite our ill-omened
beginnings. Though I asked for none he presented me with great richesgolden
stephanae set with polished jet, silver ornaments for throat, ears, arms, fingers,
black diamonds to weave in my hair, brocaded garments stiff with gold, ancient
gems gleaming by lamplight, garnet, amethyst, onyx, opal, bloodstone, sapphires
the shade of fathomless poolsa vast dowry, the common stuff of the earth.
And then the next piece of it: the torn fruit set before me, the rind stuffed
with a thousand seeds like drops of blood that well from a small, slow wound.
So then.
Six seeds of the blood-red pomegranate, and I am Queen.
Let my mother rail against that! She knows the Law full well, as do I.
My mother called me Kore, Maiden, Girl, but my name is first
Persephone, Destroyer of Light. For I am both my mother's daughter and
my mother's mother, after all; and the shadows are my true home.